anew

"I decided to start anew, to strip away what I had been taught" Georgia O'keeffe

anxious

(Freshly picked cherries from around the corner)

"Chance is always powerful. Let your hook always be cast; in the pool where you least expect it, there will be a fish ." - Ovid


It's rainy today. Strange to wake up in the beginning of July and find a cloudy overcast day. Fits my mood. I have been sick for the last few days with a sore throat of all things, and am dealing with some intense emotions, and am 37 weeks pregnant. I had my dr.'s visit yesterday and they showed my belly measured 38cm and said my little girl looks about 6 pounds at this time. I didn't gain any weight since my last 2 week visit, but the previous one I had gained 4 pounds. Little Chloe kicks all and time and I hope she is healthy. I can't wait to see my baby girl. It's getting increasingly difficult to get up from a sitting position and to even walk about as the pressure has gotten quite intense.

let it fall

 

“Sunshine is delicious, rain is refreshing, wind braces us up, snow is exhilarating; there is really no such thing as bad weather, only different kinds of good weather.”

 

 

 

 

**eating coconut almond bites from Trader Joe's listening to Fool's Gold soundtrack (great reggae sounds) with coffee brewing and the snow falling**...
My toes are still a bit cold from going outside and getting the pictures. My firewood got snowed on and last night it took about 10 tries to get it burning. But ahhh the smell and warmth of the pinon burning is so worth it.
So the current temperature is 23F but it feels like 13F according to MSN weather. Maybe I shouldn't be listening to the tropical sounding music right now! It's quite deceiving. But nice.

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“How did it happen that their lips came together? How does it happen that birds sing, that snow melts, that the rose unfolds, that the dawn whitens behind the stark shapes of trees on the quivering summit of the hill? A kiss, and all was said.”

life throws a curve

 


I know I am strong. Circumstances can push you to be stronger.
As he says-


"Everything is going to be ok"

I'm trusting that right now.

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Grandma and aunt Pam
Summer 08

universe

"Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (& creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas & splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforseen incidents, meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamt would have come his way." w.h.murray





A Return to Love; Marianne Williamson
"You are a child of God. Your playing small does not service the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us...And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

colorado

from the "Return of the Bird Tribes"

"Let the thickness of your skin be as thick as the bark of the great tree, but your heart as open as air, the sky, the universe; and understanding and love will come pouring in".

 

from The Secret by Rhonda Byrne


"In the whisper of the pines, in the gentle call of the morning dove, in a child's sleepy yawn, the new world comes dawning through the façade of the late 20th century human world it shines, a world of shimmering potential, a world of beautiful light, a world where human beings do not behave violently toward one another in thought, word or deed. It is a world of understanding and cooperation, a world of abundance in which the human spirit, freed from the shackles of self-centeredness, flies on the wings of love, leaving a trail of joy, wonder and trust.

the orchid

 

The orchid

There’s this exquisite plant in my living room. Every time I look at it I see a generous heart, and love from my dear friend Genaveave. It’s been 7 months since that was presented to me—the chocolates are long gone, but the orchid is sprouting green leaves once again. It’s quite appropriate. I have come to feel renewed, growing stronger day by day, sometimes feeling like 7 steps back, but always coming forward. Once where there was despair and uncertainty, now lies the sense of accomplishment and wonder, amazed at how life changes in a moment, teetering on the edge at times, blossoming wonderfully along the way.
I had a heartfelt conversation with a new friend about the doors that close and the new ones that open. How I wonder if we really could see our future—would we want to? Because when something is a risk to our heart, and we reach out and open it, the wonder and amazement of it all being unlike anything else in life—if we knew it was to be taken from us- would we still take that path to experience that surreal joy and ecstasy? It would be a shame and so regretful for us to reach the end of our life and realize that we never really lived at all, that we didn’t take that chance to experience the joy of love, of uninhibited being, of laughing with twinkles in the eyes, of sitting under the majestic stars, letting our guard down and feeling safe and secure with another…..to say it was all worth the wait.

summer solstice

This beautiful lady bug was spotted as I lay in the sun, half pondering, half napping... funny too was that there was a red bird that perched itself on a branch near me and began calling around for his friend... I began to feel like I was in a disney animation.

Two people in a weeks time said I looked liked the CIA agent's wife, Valerie Plame. I had to google her to see who she is.


I burned my thumb with water I was making tea with-- a workmate told me to put musterd on it-- and it made the pain go away. I always knew I had a green thumb. Not sure what a yellow thumb means...

when all else fails

 

 

The week ended much better end than it's beginning. This is what life is at times - light and dark, sun and rain, joy and tears... I wore a fuschia orchid in my hair yesterday and it was just what I needed with the raspberry cotton top...

The butterfly picture was captured today. I was on a photoshoot, and while my clients took a break, I was able to capture these moments.

I got some new earrings today. They are aqua and blue with a shiny glaze over the top, encased in a circular silver circle, two on each earring, one above the other...